Now jamming to: Houshin Engi ED - Friends
Mmmm... a nice song~ Too bad not all "friends" in the world can be sweet as this song. Eh, yeah, I'm gonna try to get a little serious here. If you dun wanna hear Mr. Psycho Yujoon babble and become semi-serious all of a sudden, just ignore this crap.
So what the hell is a friend anways? Is it an ally? Is it a soul-mate? Or is it even a companion? ('Pan' would be french for bread, so maybe a person u share your time with a nice piece of bread, even?) I dunno, but I think the best friend would have all of these qualities, a little by little. What pisses me off is when a so called friend has an 'on and off switch' for these characteristics.
When you move from a good school, to the most ghetto school you can get, you get a really different way of thinking about stuff, such as making friends. Yeah sure, there are some bad friends no matter where you go, but jeez, this place I go to now is just plain messed up. If you have food, *click* the "I'm your friend Yujoon" switch goes on. When u run out, *click* the switch goes off. Ghetto. Jeez, I don't even want to mention money. Lots of people are really selfish and dun give a damn about anyone else.
I really hate being used too. It's like I've been used so many times, I'm almost F-ing used to it. Jeez, when the hell is their damn on-off switch gonna wear off?
When I was in elementary, I could basically trust every friend I made. They had the 3 characteristics all the time and didn't try to use me into things. Now I'm in 10th grade, jeeez things are freaking different. Of course, I can't find out what the hell the friends think about me. I claim I'm psycho, but i'm not PSYCHIC. I really wonder if the people I consider a true friend will flick the switch on day... Maybe I'll be wrong about whatever I thought about them the whole time....
Hell, I'm not even sure who considers me as a friend. Online, RL, whatever. O_o; Of course I trust some that have been around me for a while, but there was thing case where we had to go a school sports thingy to one of my old schools. I met the guy that was friends with me since Kindergarten. I gave a hi, but he didn't seem to remember me and when he did, he was just like "oh, 'ey." Damn, did I feel freaking neglected.
Uhm I think I should shut the hell up now. o_O